So I've decided to write an actual post about how I am feeling with life right now! So first off, I HATE Fort Polk, Louisiana. It is such a culture shock for me to move here after living in California my whole life. I have met a couple wives here, but no one that I can really talk to and confide in, so with saying that I have been EXTREMELY lonely lately. With Christmas coming up I am missing my family and friends back home like crazy. Christmas has always been a big thing with my family, my parents always have a real tree, decorate like crazy, and it's just a special time we spend together as a family. My husband's family however was not that into Christmas therefore, my husband is not every into Christmas so that makes me sad. For the most part it is just Rylie and I, Michael is gone before we wake up and doesn't get home until 5:30-6:30pm. I crave adult interaction! I crave having a "best" friend close, and I just don't know if that will happen. I have a couple "best" friends, one of which lives in Alabama with her husband who is in the Coast Guard and stationed there. They live about 6 hours away which isn't that far, but let's face it Military pay isn't that great and we haven't had the money to visit yet! All my other friends live in California, and I feel as though it's out of sight, out of mind. We talk pretty often, but nothing like when I lived in California.
So I know this was a jumbled mess of random thoughts, but pretty much...I'm kinda in a funk right now. I kinda feel how I felt when I first moved here. Really Lonely. Things will get better after Christmas though, I hope.
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I feel for you! The first time I lived here in utah we had NO ONE. No friends. No family. And we deicded to move back to Fresno. This time around we made efforts to create our life here and make the best of it. I'm sure you have made an effort, but since you don't get the luxury of moving back whenever you want, make the very best of it. This year we can't afford to go home for Christmas, and I'm so EXCITED! I love my family and spending time with them, but this year I get to make my own family traditions. We always ran around doing what everyone else wanted us to do. Now we get to do it our way on our time. Get yourself a real tree, make some decorations with paper, felt, fabric. Anything ((check pinterest for ideas)). Make this year your own, get Michael excited about it. You have to make yourself happy, especially for Christmas or you will resent him for not being into it, or resent your situation forever. (I know this because I still carry resentment for how christmas was last year). And if you ever need someone to talk to about that text me!! I'll give u my number on facebook message. You can get through this and will be a better person and stronger family because of it. You got this make Christmas a wonderful magical experiance, if not for you or michael, do it for Rylie so she can have memories like you have. :) Love ya Jenna!
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